Faulty Cameras in Our Minds

Be happy, do the stuff that makes me happy, find a way to do the things I want to do, don’t let anyone get in my way of trying to do what I want.

Stay with Jonathan.

Day Nine: The end of the school year last year and the beginning of this year

By the time school ended last year, I was already with Jonathan, and his presence in my life at school was very… prominent. The last day of school I remember walking with Jonathan to the bus, telling him about my dreams, acting like it was no big deal that it was the ending of the school year, like we would see eachother in a couple of days (which was the original plan), and I remember him telling me before I got on the bus to tell him whenever we could hang out. It was so hard and that lead to a very Jonathan-less summer. I felt like such a bad girlfriend.

I did have my friends though, I wasn’t sure if I would lose them or not, if we would hang out or not. I was hoping that we could keep talking to each other and we did, from time to time. They’re still my friends and at the beginning of this school year they were there! At the beginning of the school year, I was so excited because I could finally see Jonathan every day and I could see my friends, and I had high hopes for this year. I walked into school like a minute before the bell rang and I found out I had no classes with my best friends. Enough complaining, at the beginning I was a little shy in class, but I met new people like LeShaney, and her and other new friends certainly made my days great. 

Day Eight: The funnest getaway 

So, I’m not quite sure what a “getaway” is I get the whole getting away, but doesn’t that involve I don’t know, leaving the state or country or something?  Well, I’l just tell about the farthest I went out of Las Vegas this year, which was also fun.

Threadz Fest in Pahrump would definitely be the funnest getaway. I actually told my mom I was going to the park with some friends and lied to her the whole time I was there. It was amazing tho, yeah, I did think it was worth and still do. Seeing bands people wished they could see and even managing to get a ride to Pahrump and having a great time there, it was one of the best nights of 2010. 

-angelakyle:

jennyfromthablock:

fuckyeahrealism:

jongotsoul:

 

Day Seven: Your birthday

My birthday went like this:

• Wake up
• Walk around my house
• Drink jamaica
• Eat 
• Get ready to go to volleyball
• Get picked up by my dad to go to his house first
• Eat jello there
• End up not going to volleyball and play pool at his house
• Go back to my house and eat cake 
• Watch tv

Awesome right? 

Day Six: Your best friends

I would say I used to have best friends, ones that I loved to death and would always have a good time with. Brooke, Shelbi and Patriz and Tanya, there the ones who I told everything to, went places with, they were the people I could count on who would be there for me. Yeah, they were pretty great.

This time around, I would say I have good friends. Who are pretty awesome too :)  but know little of my personal life or struggles, but nonetheless, they’re great and I love having them around. 

Day Five: The most memorable moment

Well, the most memorable moment of 2010 would have to be when Jonathan asked me out. It started when I went to second lunch to take pictures of the Cinco De Mayo dance they had going on. A lot of his friends were in it so he was outside eating and I passed right by him and I was expecting him to say hi, but he didn’t. So me, being the sly dog I am, I sit near him and say with some what of an attitude “hi”. He turns around and finally acknowledges my presence and says he didn’t see me and says hi and turns around. He turns back around abruptly and asks me what my last period was and I tell him, and he tells me to meet him “there”. Me being A smart ass says I don’t know where “there” is, so we cleared it up and that was that.

I remember I was walking down the stairs after school and I could see him through the double doors leaning against a wall. I had fire breathing dragons in my stomach when I approached and for a second there was silence. I said hi and all that jazz, but then I asked him what he was doing standing there. Then he proceeded to ask me what I’m doing standing there, to which I told him that it was him that asked me to meet him there. We finally start walking and he was sooooooooooooooo nervous. He was walking with his hands behind his head, saying he was sorry for being “confused”, at one point he started walking backwards, and he’s really not saying anything. I was probably teasing him about something or telling him to tell me, when he abruptly stops, puts his hands together, looks at me, and says “Do you want to go out with me?” and of course I said yes. Most memorable moment.

Day Three and Four: The worst and best day

Mmm, I don’t think I can call one day my “best day”. I do tho have many freakin’ awesome days though. For one, Extreme Thing and Threadz Fest were beast. One really good day though, was when I went to Jonathan’s house for the first time and we did a lot of things that day. Which I blogged about and it turned out to be a huge list. Brooke’s birthday was pretty awesome :) and I’m sure I’ve had many more good days. 

The worst day, hmm, any day I cried or was pissed off and I cried or I was pissed off, but had to keep my mouth shut or any day I was sad and worried and anytime Jonathan seems mad . There were definitely more than a few of those. 

Day Two: Relationship(s)

Mmm, well I’m just going to talk about the many kind of relationships there can be because I’m not sure if it means a romantic relationship.

Fact is, many of my relationships that started off strong this year are slowly fading. They’re still there, but have little or no impact on my life anymore. 

I did strengthen the bonds I have with my family though, only certain ones. I’ve become much closer to my cousins, my uncle shows up more (though not entirely a good thing, but still), I’m learning of this family I have in Mexico. The relationship with my mom continues to be the one most typical teenagers have with their mom, good and bad, I blame it on being a teenager :P

I’ve made new relationships though. I’ve made new friends, sadly, they’re just there to help me survive the school day. I appreciate them very much though :)

Probably the most important one is the one I’ve had with Jonathan. I think about and it surprises me that for seven months out of this whole year, we’ve spent them together as a couple. There have been ugly times, but good times as well. From here, I’m working on making things a bit better. 

In one big post, or maybe a post for each day. 

Day One: A few things you will never forget in 2010

• The absolute very beginning of 2010 when I was mad at my mom because she had to work and didn’t come home in time. 
• Living with my grandma, uncle, brothers, mom, and sometimes cousins.
• All the dogs we came to have at one point.
• Extreme Thing
• Baking cupcakes with Brooke, Patriz and Shelbi for our English project
• Spending the night at Brooke’s house and going into her backyard at 2 am
• Spending the night at Wendy’s and going to orchard 
• Meeting and making new friends
• Melissa’s, Ana’s, Vannia’s, and Jessica’s quince
• Things having to do with my brother
• Volleyball 
• Absolutely, anything, and everything having to do with Jonathan T. 

whatevabro:

11:50 PM

Oh my gosh, 2010 is almost over you guys..

11:55 PM

You guys I’m so excited.

11:58 PM

Omg, you guys I don’t think you understand, it’s gunna be an entirely new year.

11:59 PM

Hey look, everyone is already outside yelling.

12:00 AM

Wow omg yay Happy New Year everyone..

12:15 AM

Oh it’s 2011 now, right?

12:30

Yeah, goodnight.

Follow the Sound- The Autumn Film

Relationship stuff next. You’ve been warned.

I don’t know what to do. I think about all these little things having to do with us, you. I don’t know if they’re big enough to bring up. I don’t if you could clearly comprehend what I would try to say or my feelings. If I say something I want to it to be clearly understood. Then again, I wonder if I should even say anything. Are they that important to be brought up? Would you understand? I don’t know. I want to stop these thoughts though.